Whatever it is that's goin' through me
I wish it would hurry up, it's gettin' to me
At night I drift in and out of a nasty dream
I can't seem to shake, I need a new theme
I have watched as my soul has washed up on the shoals
And the rocks of the sores of insanity
Crack open the window a bit please
When I can hardly breathe I get panicky
I know I shouldn't feel this way
Cuz I've peeked down the dark hallway of the end of my days
And in many ways I can see very clearly
Why it all seems so crazy
I know I shouldn't feel this way
Having been born in the late 1950's
But anyways I do and there's nothing I can change
It sticks with me
When I look at the wheelings and dealings in my life
And what it has got me
I still believe I am nineteen in my mind
But I can't fool my body

So just bill me
Just bill me

Torn between eternal life
And the need to make a mortgage payment
Negative numbers don't phase me in the least
On the inevitable monthly statement
I gotta find a way to make the things I say
More interesting
But it's hard not to sound trite and platitudeness
When you've tried everything and done all the rest
It's not braggin' on myself
I've led a quiet life of trial and tribulation (and experimentation)
Curious on the jagged edge of strife and gratification
I am loved and I return love
In varying degrees of sensual acme
Always looking over my shoulder
And in back of me
In case I think there might a detractor there to attack me (A-a-a-h-h)
People can look at me, but they can't see
What really lies beneath
And I look at people closely
But they don't know how far I can reach

So just bill me
Just bill me

I take so much time
To teach all the young ones so carefully, and so wholly
And thinking of them all the while and not of myself
Is all that controls me
There's something wrong about the way things go
When all the hard times are behind me
But now I move so slow
I wish I could keep up the pace that I used to
When I didn't know
I was leanin' on a lamppost
Lookin' out at the world around me
In total disbelief that the high-tech government surveillance equipment
Hasn't found me
Your social etiquette kind rhymes with a pile of shit (ew!)
I try to put the best light on a subject
But it just doesn't ever seem to fit
I gotta thank a few friends for slappin' me around
And makin' it all much clearer
Cuz I certainly haven't learned anything
Comin' from when i look into a mirror

So just bill me
Just bill me

Forbidden love is like a wooden club that beats you
To your knees
You can spend all your time beggin' forgiveness
From the demons that defeat you
If you please
You can never cleanse your soul
From any sins you might've committed
You can only outwit your friends so many times
Before they quit it
It's lonely standing only with yourself
And no one else around
Looking deep inside yourself
To see if there's any answers to be found
Huh?
Look away in shame and then in disgust
And then in just plain denial
Is your sanity insane or just a jury
Deliberating on some trial (Court adjourned!)
If there's any little thing, anything at all
That I could change
But once again it'd be a shame
Cuz after all these years
There's nothing left to rearrange

So just bill me
Just bill me
Bill me
Yeah, go ahead and bill me
Just bill me
Just bill me